Anyway, I’m a tad bit cranky - in case that observation wasn’t clear to everyone from the paragraph above. Why? Cause it’s hot out and I don’t have a bathing suit well I do but I don’t have one of those sun tanning bathing suits and I really wanted to work on my tan today. I’m aiming for a bit of colour this summer, since I usually tend to avoid all means of sunlight and cover myself in sunscreen. But this year, I want to embrace the sun and get some colour to my normally pallid complexion. Ok, so it’s not usually pallid looking and my Granny says I have a gorgeous complexion, but in the summer I definitely glow - and not in a good way. Every other person in the universe has a tan but me it seems, so I’ll be working on that this summer.

At least I got the interview with West 49 out of the way. It’s hard to tell how it went, and since it won’t even be the guy who interviewed me making the decision, it’s really hard to say. I thought I did pretty well - I didn’t quote Samuel L. Jackson this time. That’s gotta be a good thing. I was friendly and open, instead of quite and reserved like I was at my Blockbuster’s interview. He said that if the manager who’s doing the hiring likes what she reads about my interview, I’ll get a call by the end of the week and hopefully land another interview - and then a job. I really need a job, I’m like drooling at the prospect of making money here. This job would be a total bonus because I wouldn’t have to hide myself at all

While I was doing my interview, Booth was visiting a temping agency at the mall and doing tests on his intelligence. The lady was so impressed with his answers that she told him he would hear back from them by the end of the week. Booth has factory work experience, so he didn’t even need to watch the video I’m so proud hehe. I guess this means nobody can say anything about Booth “not working”, haha The bonus to this temping agency is that all of the jobs are in factories around the tattoo shop Booth is managing, so that’s good.

Bahh. So I’ve made a slight mental list of things I want to accomplish this summer; here they are:

• Get somewhat of a tan so that I don’t glow in the dark anymore. I might have to start going to a tanning bed, because I don’t know if I can sit still long enough outside to tan.
• Get a job. Preferably one that I’ll have when I am fully recovered from my surgery and one that I can keep throughout the school year.
• Get my Smart Serve - this of course will have to wait until I get a job, so that I can afford to take the test/course thing.
• Save up as much money as I possibly can - this, again, can only be done if I get a job though.

So ya, that’s a quick mental list. I also want to read all the books I possibly can before school starts, since I just know I won’t have the time to do that when I’m trying to ace everything and get honors - which, by the way, I better get.

AND, because I haven’t had the time to update about the long weekend; I’ll do that now. It was pretty uneventful for the most part. Dragon’s hubby bought like 800 bucks worth of fireworks, and Booth set them off on Monday night. McShout and her boyfriend and a friend came down to watch too. I didn’t do much other than helping Dragon and Booth garden and such when I was there.

Now I’ve got to get back to vacuuming. I think Salem is allergic to dust and hair, because every single time we vacuum he ends up barfing. All. Over. The. Clean. Floor. It’s awesome. One day I came home and kicked a pile of it. In bare feet. That was awesome too. Not.

So last night I spent the evening at McShout’s watching B class movies and catching up. It was pretty sweet, she’s got a really crazy cat that was an endless source of amusement for us. Then today Dragon and Booth picked me up because today was Dragon’s son’s birthday. He turned 7. He had a wicked birthday if I do say so myself; we went crazy on decorations and his parents spoiled him with wicked presents and we had a pig roast for dinner. Good day all and all. I got a few funny videos of Booth playing with the helium from the balloon and talking like Alvin and the Chipmunks haha. I’ll try to post them soon.

But ya, I’m tired. There isn’t much to report in my life right now and I can’t focus on a topic long enough to write a decent post today. I’m still working on getting my license, and I still have that interview on Wednesday that I really hope I get the job for. Other than that, nothings’ really new.

Ya I know, I’ve only been dating Booth since February, but it’s not like we’re getting an apartment next week…we’re getting one in ten months from now. By that point, we will have been together for a year and a bit. We are both starting to save up money now for first and last as well as some furniture. I’m excited about it; although I know many people will probably say “it’s too soon for you to be tied down like that”, or whatever…but I’ll be the judge of that. I know better than anyone else when something is too soon for me.

Besides, like Kiwi said…”Some times the best things in life happened in an instant you know. Not everything takes a life time to develop. Living in the moment makes the best memories“. She’s right.

So after Christmas, Booth and I will start collecting things for our apartment. As of right now, I’m going to focus on getting my license and finding a job that pays decent yet fits my college schedule. Today I drove to my grandma’s, and I think I did well. On the way home, my mom didn’t correct me on anything - and on the way there she barely had to correct me. All she really did was give directions and make small reminders (that I already knew). I think I will definitely be ready for my test by the 22nd.

I still haven’t heard back from the hospital yet. I’m hoping I won’t have to have that surgery until early August. I really want to get my license as soon as possible. I love driving, I really don’t know why I feared it in the first place. I’m way more comfortable behind the wheel now, and I don’t get anxious at all. For long trips I do get a little restless, but meh. I will just have to have rest stops where I can get out and move around.

But ya, I just thought I’d mention how excited I am to be getting my own place soon! And *if* Booth and I break up (which I sincerely doubt we will and I will seriously give up on love if thats the case) then I’ll still get an apartment anyway. The one we’re looking at is affordable and in the nice area of town, so yay. But ya like I said, I doubt Booth and I will break up. I really do believe he’s in it for the long haul, after all the drama and crap that’s been going on, he’s still here and still treating me way better than I deserve!

Today I got a lot accomplished. I applied to a temp agency that provides temporary administrative jobs to people, hopefully I get in. You can make a lot of money - especially if you work in government offices hehe. I also decided to get in some driving hours, and apply at stores at the mall. I put out 8 resumes at my favourite mall stores and got an interview right away with West 49 next week so hopefully that pans out. It’s only a seasonal position but there is the opportunity to get hired on all year round since I’ll be going to school near by.

So ya, things are looking up. I’m hoping my surgery won’t be until early August (or preferably not at all but I do need it) that way I can get my license and get a job with West 49. Hopefully I’ll be trained before I go in, and hopefully I can still work after a week of recovering from my surgery. It shouldn’t take me too long, I could probably manage well enough with crutches on cash. I need to pay that Visa bill haha.

I learned a few days ago who they hired to be the summer students at the recreational group. Am I surprised they screwed me over? Not really. I’m hurt through. After receiving the email that claimed due to policies and procedures they could not hire me this summer as I had not been in school for the past 4 months, I felt something was fishy. Firstly, you have to read the policies and procedures when you get hired. I never once read any such policy or procedure. The only policy and procedure they had on college/university students was that they must attend school in the fall, which I will be doing. Nothing about attending or not attending school beforehand. In fact, one employee last year had taken a year off. She was given a job because she was attending school in the fall.

One policy and procedure I did read about was how they didn’t hire people who were dating due to work drama. Guess what they did this summer? Hired two students who have been dating for about a year or 2. All of the members and volunteers alike know that they are dating. I wasn’t allowed to be in the same group as NSN during one of the day trips “because we were dating and it was ethically incorrect”, yet they are allowed to work together? How does this work?

Mom says not to let it get to me…considering I didn’t really want the job in the first place. But truthfully, I did want the job. I love the members, I love the work. Sure, I hated the board and the stupid expectations they had about everything remaining the same…but whatever. I only pretended to not want the job because I had a feeling that they would screw me over in the end, just like the old program director - and my friend - warned me that they would. He knew for some time they were planning on not hiring me…which is why he advised me to look elsewhere. But stupid me was convinced that they would give me a job, since I had some sort of seniority over the other people who may apply because I worked there last summer. I didn’t really expect them to go out of their way to find reasons why not to hire me.

Am I jealous? Yes. Extremely jealous. I have never been treated the same way that those two people they hired (who are dating) have been treated. Ever. I wasn’t allowed to be on the same bus as NSN (not that I mind now), meanwhile they were allowed to be on the same bus and they’re allowed to work together. How is this fair? Plus everybody talks about how amazing they both are, and sure…they’re cool people, but they aren’t holy grails. In fact I don’t like how she treats other females - especially me. And I don’t think that being arrogant should mean you’re smart.

I don’t know. I guess I’m just feeling betrayed now. And since Fuzz told me that they were all talking about how I think it’s a conspiracy, I’m even more mad. I don’t think its a conspiracy at all, I know that the board members thought I was lazy because of that weekend I couldn’t leave my tent due to the rain and dampness. I know that the board members thought I couldn’t “handle direction” because of the joking nature that the old program director and I had. There is no conspiracy there, just one petty person deciding to make me look bad because I was friends with someone she didn’t like.

Not to mention, I haven’t received any emails from anybody. If I was a summer students, emails would be going out on a daily basis in a friendly way to everyone, just like last year. And they wonder why they don’t have any volunteers.

I’ve been thinking about the future again, and my stomach is twisted in nervous knots. Don’t worry, I’m not going to back out of this program - I do really want it! But I’m nervous as hell because I have to take Accounting! Readers who have been around for like ever remember my high school days of fighting to get by in Math. Math has never been my strong suit. I probably wouldn’t be so insecure in Math if my stupid high school teachers didn’t act as if I was completely number stunned. But they did, and they kept saying to me “choose a career that doesn’t need Math”.

I won’t lie, I was a very difficult student to help in Math. I didn’t need help in any of my other subjects, so I was extremely bitchy and difficult to the teachers who tried to help me. I hate not getting something, and I really didn’t (and still don’t) get Math.

Whenever I am told to answer a Math problem, even if it’s the simplest question in the world, my mind freezes and I have mini mental freakouts. I can’t get past that to focus on the question and solution, and I’m convinced my mind has blocked out all the solutions anyway. Does that make sense to anybody? Because it doesn’t to me. I’ve never known anybody to have panic attacks when faced with a math problem. I guess I really am one of a kind (said sarcastically, of course).

So needless to say, I’m very nervous about school now since looking at the classes list. I still want to be a Dental Receptionist and Administrator, but I was really hoping to be on the honor role and top of the class (since that would REALLY prove a lot of people wrong about me). Gah. I guess I’ll just have to work my butt off and get a tutor very early on.

We remember Dawg.

Anyways, Ears is taking a look at my laptop tonight. Booth will be standing beside my baby while Ears tries his best to fix all that I’ve done wrong to my darling laptop. Hopefully he will succeed, and get rid of all those viruses. If not, well I guess I have to wipe it clean and start all over. That means I will lose all of my stories. And pictures. But more importantly stories. So ya, thanks Avitable lmfao. I’m totally kidding, but next time folks, make sure that advice is followed by a huge email explaining how to use the products. I’m seriously tech-stupid!

So last night I went out to dollar beer night with some friends. It really was not my scene, can you say ew? The girls’ bathroom was DISGUSTING with toilet bowl water overflowing all over the floor and drunk chicks falling everywhere - I mean maybe that would appeal to some guys but definitely not to me. I had some guy hump me from behind when I was trying to get back to where Booth was - not once, but four times. He apologized after every time to make it look as if the people behind him were shoving, but really, how can your frontal area be the only area that gets pushed forward? *Shivers* Unfortunately there is no footage of me falling around and wearing a crown. Kiwi forgot the crown and I didn’t bring my camera.

The sleep over that I had with the girls was that - a sleep over. We all passed out as soon as we got in. Then one of my friends dropped me off at Booth’s house on her way to work so I could hang out with Booth. We went to the garden center with Dragon and the boys and gardened. Yup, I gardened! Not very well mind you, but I’m learning!! I’m sure I’ll get better. I sort of want to work on Mom’s garden next…although that would be a lot of work haha. Talk about weeds…haha.

And tomorrow Booth is taking me out for a movie! We’re going to see The Incredible Hulk. I’m excited, we haven’t had a date night in a while - since we saw You Don’t Mess With The Zohan (hilarious movie, I recommend it, especially if you like Adam Sandler humour - this is by far his best movie). I finally got all those pictures to upload onto Facebook (before my laptop was discovered to be riddled with viruses that is). The above picture is one that a lot of people like, it’s one of those “totally caught the moment” photo. I wish that the zoom wasn’t on, and that it wasn’t so close to our faces…but other than that I love it. What do you guys think? Hmmm?

Sorry…gushing again. I’ll stop now; I’ve got to finish reading The Host by Stephenie Meyer anyway!

So I’m feeling pretty on top of things. I cleaned up my room yesterday - well most of it anyway. I put away all of my clothes and got rid of the heaping pile of garbage. I still have to vacuum and reorganize my desk. But that I shall save for another day.

This morning I’m just taking it easy - at home of course - and reading blogs that I haven’t read in a while, lurking people on Facebook (because that’s always fun, don’t lie! You do it too) and ATTEMPTING to upload those pictures of Booth and I…but that might have to wait.

So anyways, when I was lurking people on Facebook, guess what I found out? NSN has a new girlfriend. I was completely shocked to find that I don’t care! See back in November I would have been devastated that he moved on, but in all fairness I technically moved on first. I dated that loser guy for a couple of weeks and I’ve been with Booth for nearly six months, and since being with Booth…I’ve never looked back. I see now how I should be treated, and it definitely wasn’t how NSN treated me. My definition of love has completely changed thanks to Booth, and its all for the better!

I can’t remember if I ever really blogged about what really was going on between NSN and I because I can remember not wanting the good people of blogland to hate him, and since I’m too lazy to go back in my achieves and find out…I’ll just retell it. I don’t care if you guys hate him now though, because I do! Anyways, I would give 100% in that stupid relationship, and NSN barely gave 50%. He took everything I did for him for granted and just expected more and more of me, which is why by the end I was so exhausted and fed up. At the time, I didn’t want to end the relationship because I figured it was only so bad because I moved away and we saw each other less. I didn’t realize or want to admit the fact that his stupidity was there throughout our entire relationship and he had grown tired of me way at the beginning. If I had a bad day, he got pissed at me for wanting to talk about what was going on or for getting upset over the millions of stupid things he did.

But with Booth, he gives 100% to our relationship, just like I do. He’s aware that not every day can be sunshine and butterflies, and he knows that everybody has their insecure days. He’s patient and kind with me, and he doesn’t expect anything that he wouldn’t give me first. He’s aware of the fact that you don’t have to go out every single night of the week, that sometimes sitting at home with a rented movie can be just as romantic as an “expensive dinner”. Since we’re both broke and can’t even consider affording expensive dinners, this is what we do often. Booth actually likes and enjoys my company. He considers me to be his best friend, and I consider him to be mine. You need to be friends as well as lovers, and thats something NSN never understood because he never even considered me a friend.

Truth be told, I’ve had several chance meetings with Booth before NSN and I broke up. He was at that fundraiser I helped run and we made eye contact and I thought he was hot (Booth remembers every detail about what I was wearing and how my hair looked etc haha). And then there was this one time at McPout’s house, when NSN, B2 and her then boyfriend were all hanging out with McPout and Nelly and my mom. Booth dropped by with another neighbour and I can remember feeling quite hot because he kept looking at me from the corner of his eye and smiling that cute shy smile he has. He said that he was checking me out because I was hot, and that he was looking at NSN on the couch and thinking “total loser” haha. I asked Booth why he didn’t run over and sweep me off my feet into his arms and kiss me then and there, and he said because he didn’t want to be a home wrecker and knew that NSN and I wouldn’t last very long.

And we didn’t, and I’m glad because I would never have realized just how perfect Booth is for me. Sure, he might not have a college education at this point and he may not have the best job in the world…but he’s happy with what he does, and I’m happy that he’s found something he enjoys doing. Heck, I know he’s going to go to college next September for Business, he’s so excited about it and he can’t wait. The only reason why he didn’t sign up for this year is because they started the tattoo business and he wants to help Dragon get that off the ground before he goes to school. Makes sense to me, and he’s making money - contrary to what everyone else thinks.

And the most important thing is that he’s making me happy. I’ve never dated a guy who was so intuned to what I want and need. I have never dated a guy who actually cares enough to make me happy every single day. Booth buys me random presents, he’s bought me an adorable sundress, a ring, a purse, and countless rings for my multiple piercings. I don’t care if he “looks like a grenade went off in his face” due to all his piercings, because he’s a good guy. He really is. I didn’t know what a good guy was until I met him because the only one I knew was my dad and I thought that good guys were a dead breed. I’ve always been told to never judge a book by it’s cover, and I don’t. Sure, I have opinions about people, but that’s after I get to know them. Opinions are fine if you have taken the time to get to know someone, but making prejudgments aren’t fine.

Remember this? I still stand by what it says.

P.S. I’m amused at the turn of events this post has taken.

P.S.S. I love Booth and I’m happy. And I wish everyone else would see that, piercings and tattoos aside people, he’s amazing to me.

ANYWAYS, today I would like to talk about the economy. Does anybody else feel like it’s suffering? GM plants around here are closing down like crazy, people are loosing jobs and finding jobs keeps getting harder and harder with each passing year. Screw fancy degrees and all that jazz, nobody seems to be having much luck in the job department. Why am I babbling on and on about this? Well, I’m concerned and worried about the track our economy is on. It’s only going to get worse, so what will it be like next year? Will I even be able to put my new college degree to use next year at this time? Or are we seriously teethering on the bridge of another depression?

I think so. I think we are very close to another depression. There are a million things to blame for this, or at least in my opinion. GM plants are shutting down like crazy because the gas prices are so high that nobody can afford all those fancy cars made in Canada, GM cars are generally pigs with gas…and with prices so high who wants to buy cars that just suck back dollar signs like Lindsay Lohan does narcotics? Then all those GM guys who had jobs suddenly don’t have jobs, and the pizza they ordered for their families of 2.5 kids every single Friday suddenly don’t get ordered…so the pizza companies start to suffer. Plus there are all these unemployed people looking for employment, and not enough jobs to go around.

…at least not from what I can see. And it’s really all the gas companies fault in the end, because I bet that we aren’t short on oil supplies. It’s just the government being pigs for money. I hope they realize that by leeching the greater public out of all this money for gas, they’re just screwing themselves over in the end and we’ll have another depression, only worse because all these kids are so used to everything being handed to them that when they suddenly have nothing they’ll probably all go crazy.

If we do have another depression, I really don’t think education is going to mean squat. Do you? I’m not saying I’m not going to go to school in September because I totally am, I’m just bitching and moaning because that’s what I do best. Plus it’s an interesting thing to think about…where we are going to be in a couple years from now.

Plus the year 2012 is coming up super fast. Remember how everybody freaked out over Y2K? Can you just imagine what New Years 2011 is going to be like? Holy crap. Especially with movies like I Am Legend fueling people’s imaginations and fears…

I really think I should get to work on my underground home…like in Blast From The Past. Now they had the right idea…having a bomb shelter underground stalked full of food for a decade or so.

Um ya…so I suppose we can end the really random rant I just had for no apparent reason. Besides, my pasta is ready. Hmm…pasta. If I could, all I would eat would be pasta and McDonalds. Mostly pasta though.

OH P.S!

I totally got hate mail today for the first time ever! I don’t even care if it was from Sarah in an attempt to make me feel better about myself…thanks Sarah! This anonymous sender even used a fake email! How awesome! Here’s the lovely hate email I got from some unknown person who really is a known person named Sarah…

board readerz <stupid@yahoo.com> wrote:
“sarcastica”? really, that’s a stoopid name if i ever heerd one.

dude quit being so sarcastica and get on with your life.

jez man.

(tee hee. Hope you know who sent you some awesome hate mail?)

Ya I know. I’m lame because I actually was jealous that Sarah got hate mail and I didn’t…hehe. But only because you KNOW you made it big when you get hate mail…and I’ve never gotten hate mail before.