Monday’s Suck
No word yet on whether or not I got the job. All this waiting and anticipating is driving me nuts. I hate waiting in fast food line ups, so its no wonder waiting for word on if I got Summer Student or not is driving me insane, considering it’s been like a decade week. Not to mention, my supervisors constant referral to the interviews doesn’t help. New Guy keeps talking about the nursing students he’s interviewed and how totally awesome it would be to hire “a couple” nursing students. Well that certainly puts me out of the job. I’m going to be really angry if I don’t get it because now it’s too late to look for a summer job that pays as well as this one days ($10.50 an hour - now I know that doesn’t sound like much to you guys, but I’m 17 don’t forget). But I really can’t compete with a nursing student.
D didn’t show up for work again today. I texted her to ask what the hells been going on lately, and she said that she went to the hospital again last night because she had another panic attack and couldn’t breath. I find it slightly suspicious, seeing as D has never had panic attacks before in her life and they are suddenly appearing now. I’m not saying she’s a liar or anything, don’t worry. I’m just saying its fishy that she can’t even come to co-op for one full day without something dramatical happening (i.e fainting and having to go to the emergency room). She was also supposed to do her event today. She was going to run a program for Day Program, but that clearly isn’t happening. I’m trying to keep neutral about everything but damn its getting frustrating always having to be the one people go to and having the back log of work to do.
Ya, that’s why I’m on blogger right? Cause I’m oh so busy. Shuddup. I’m taking a well deserved break to complain that my stomach feels like its going to explode. Yep. My stomach hates me. I also wanted to complain about how Monday’s really suck, because they do. Especially if your stomach hates you and it feels like your stomach is going to explode. I also wanted to complain about the fact that I sincerely doubt I’m going to get Summer Student because New Guy seems very taken with the nursing students that applied for the job. Damn it. There’s always someone better then me, and I really needed this job. If I don’t get this job, then I’m screwed. Actually my parents are screwed and stuck with every single bill that going away for college will leave them. At least if I got this job, I would be able to save up some money and help out.
Speaking of parents, my mom just got a blog. Uh talk about weird! Now she’s going to read all my posts and yell at me for my teenage mistakes.
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11:31 am |
What’s better then 300? Thats right, 400.
So this is officially post 400. Wow. 400 posts and I’ve yet to say anything really all that great. I know some people who are super popular by 50 posts and have the world hanging on to every single word they write. Not me, I’m happy with my tiny batch of minions and invisible admirers that really are all in my head. The objective of this blog (when created in December 2005) was never really to be Miss Popularity. Sarcastica is happy being well, Sarcastica. Miss Popularity is some other can of worms all together, who probably conforms to what she thinks the readers want to hear (by the way, if there actually is a blogger out there who goes by the name of Miss Popularity, then I totally meant no harm there).
I never would have thought I would make even the slightest indent in the blogging world. See I figured Karen would be the only person reading my blog. I’m glad I have more then one reader now! I still believe in quality over quantity. That’s why I’m considered a “loser” in school, because my friends vary in quality but never quantity, and that’s just the way I like it.
However, I find it amusing to go back in time to my early days as a blogger and read the first things I’ve ever written about. I’m happy to say that today’s posts seem more grown up and mature then that time period. I think I hide behind immaturity a little to cover face. But now I’ve grown up and realized that I’m cooler then that and I can blog about whatever I want. I especially liked my Candy Shop song remake. Damn I had fun that day. Maybe a little too much fun?
Anyway, I’ve been hear for two years -3 in December. I’m almost famous, sort of anyway, with my minions. I’m happy to see that a lot of the people who used to be all like “I’m never going to read Sarcastica because she’s a teen blogger and man that’s just not right” have changed their ways and actually read me. I’m like a guilty pleasure for a lot of the people who don’t admit they read me because I’m a teen. I’m those 5 pounds that go straight to you thighs after reading me in secret, heh. That’s what happens if you don’t comment, I’m just weight that goes to your thighs!
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10:39 am |
I’m a big girl now
I had my tour of the college today at 3pm. I was hoping for a private tour, considering I have a lot of questions regarding disability services and such, but I went on a tour with another guy and his parents so I didn’t feel comfortable asking all the questions I had in mind. He was going into Accounting or something, and his mom got a little chatty with me because she heard I was going into the Social Service Worker program and apparently she’s a Social Service Worker.
The tour was a lot of walking (for me anyway) but our tour guide assured us that our classes would be in generally the same area so it wouldn’t be too much walking. She also told us we could pick up bus tickets at the bookstore for $180 a semester. I guess that means it isn’t included in the tuition fee? Pooh. I was hoping it would be included. Instead, we get to go to a local gym free of cost. I thought this was stupid - I mean hello, I can’t do sports - until she informed me that there was a pool at the gym. I could swim during the winter months! I swim usually to releave some stress, so this is a good thing.
I’m really excited about college. I’m trying to get everything planned out and ready before August and I’m driving my parents crazy with my plans. I don’t mean to, I can’t help it though. It’s the next chapter of my life, so its no wonder I’m going to be a little excited about it! Yesterday during the second half of the day I visited a Rogers store and spoke to one of the people there about Rogers Home Phone and their cell phone plans. So far, it’s the best plan I’ve heard of. For a basic home phone package (basic line + 1 feature) it’s $29.95 a month and I think the lady said it was around $19 or so for unlimited calling anywhere in Canada. Plus there is no activation fee. I’m going to have to look deeper into that later on though.
Only about 4 more months before college! I really can’t believe how much I’m looking forward to it, I thought I would dread college. The only thing I dread is not seeing/talking to Nifty as often as I do, but I know we’ll work it out. The town I am moving to has a lot of cool entertainment places so if he came down to visit me we wouldn’t be bored. Plus I noticed there was a hotel near by, so if the weather was bad or it was too late for him to drive back home he could stay there (since my landlords won’t allow over night guests). I’m even thinking about getting new tires for my old bike, so I could bike down to school and such during the warmer months (but my parents are against that idea, so is my body!). And I noticed there was a pretty good pizza delivery place that Roomie and I could occasionally spend some money on for dinner as a nice refreshing change from Kraft Dinner.
See? I’m just bursting with college plans!
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5:19 pm |
FOAD
It’s been such a long time since I had a FOAD Thursday post. Usually come Thursday I’m just not in the mood for it, as I usually spend every other day bitching about people/work/things.
Today though, I feel like giving a huge FOAD to Denny’s. My boyfriend, Nifty, works at Denny’s and they are always calling him in to work on days we have stuff planned. Since Nifty is a push over and believes that if he says no he’ll get fired, he goes and leaves me at home with his sisters. Not cool. Denny’s is better at guilting Nifty then I am. Nifty can’t come out to the camping weekends because he can’t book time off, which is ridiculous but he believes they have a right too since he’s going to take a week off for the residential camp.
I’m tired now. I barely slept last night because I was subconsciously waiting for Nifty to call, plus I was so worried that he didn’t like me anymore and that was why he wasn’t calling. He didn’t call me after school or at 12am, when he usually does because he’s off work. So this morning I called him, and his sister said he wasn’t home yet. I started panicking because I imagined the horrible things that happen to people during night shifts. I called Denny’s looking for him, and he was still working. Apparently, someone didn’t show up for their shift and he got stuck working a double. I don’t know how Denny’s management can guilt a student into working a double on a school night and make them feel like they don’t have any choice in the matter. Nifty is certainly not being treated right there and he won’t do anything about it so it frustrates me more.
And the webcam is up and running, although Dialup makes it choppy so I won’t use it much until I move in September.
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10:13 am |
I hate Denny’s.
Still no word on the Summer Student job. I’m beginning to get quite frustrated because the wait is far too long for me. I want to know now, I mean I understand that they have to give all the people a fair chance but what if they find someone better then me on the last interview? If they had just said “Ok Sarcastica, you’re the best so far so we’ll hire you,” then that wouldn’t happen because they would have already hired me. Ya I know, that doesn’t make sense and sounds really stupid but whatever. I want my way!
I’m very frustrated with Nifty at this moment too. Actually, I think maybe the problem is that I’m feeling insecure again and he’s been working a lot lately and I guess he got too busy after school to call me before work. He said he would, and it irritates me to no end when people say they will and then don’t. That’s what I like to call pulling a Skid Head. Skid Head used to always tell me he would call me and never did. Don’t you hate it when assholes ruin your trust? Ya.
But I mostly blame Denny’s. That stupid family resturant that has my poor Nifty working like a dog for that stupid training position he wants. He’s working a double on Saturday, after he’s worked every single day this week from 4pm til 11pm - and when I say until 11pm I really mean until 1am in the morning. Then he’s all tired for school so his marks are probably suffering. He thinks that he has to work all these extra hours, which is stupid because he was fine not working the extra hours before. He’s already saved enough to fix his car, or should have. Nifty’s problem is he spends his money before he gets it. But damnit this isn’t fair for the lonely girlfriend.
He does have Thursday and Friday off, but I work Thursday (theres a dance I have to run at SYG) and he needs rest that day anyway. I think I’m going over after the dance to stay the night because I won’t be finished at SYG until like 11. Friday he’s supposed to come to my house, because with him working practically all the time and me already just down the street we haven’t hung out at my house in forever.
Anyway, the web cam Karen bought for me just arrived and I’m trying to install it with lots of help from Avi. Apparently you aren’t supposed to plug it in until you install the software - I did it backwards heh. I’m going to uninstall it now and hopefully it will work! If not, I’m smashing my computer.
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6:26 pm |
Stupid, Inconsiderate, Asshat People.
So today was the local youth fair and I went with New Guy to set up a booth and hopefully get people interested in volunteers. I’d have to say we did pretty good, we had about 32 people or so sign up, but let me tell you there was some rude mother effing people there.
One kid came up to our booth and approached us like we were a joke. “So whats this place all about?” and we told him what we were telling everyone else; SYG is a recreational group for developmentally handicapped adults, all you have to do is come out and be a friend to our members and treat them with respect” and the stupid idiot kid said “Why would I wanna do that? It’s not like they know any different or should have the same opportunities as us.” New Guy and I got really pissed at this point, and we both wanted to knock the guy out. New Guy tried to explain that yes, they do know different and they most certainly should have the same opportunities as you, but the kid interrupted and said “I don’t need this crap” and walked off laughing.
For starters, I wonder who the hell raised that kid. He lacked manors and empathy, and common sense. Common sense tells you that you just don’t say shit like that. It’s stupid, heartless, and it really makes you look like an idiot. If I wasn’t busy with a different group of people, I would have said something. I would have asked where his teacher was and then spoken to him/her about the kids behaviour.
Unfortunately he wasn’t the only person with that outlook. I really don’t understand why kids of my generation and younger lack empathy, common sense, manors, and heart. It sickens me. I don’t want to be a part of this generation because it sucks so much. For ever 2 good people there’s 10 bad people. It’s just not fair because I’m tossed into a category of “the generation that doesn’t give a shit” and people instantly think I’m another stupid, inconsiderate asshat.
Speaking of inconsiderate people, I called the office today to see if D could photocopy 100 more volunteer brochures for us and then have OB bring them down. ABean answered the phone and she said “So what, you want me to call D at home and ask her?” Apparently, D called in this morning and said “Ya, I’m not coming in because I don’t feel like it,” and then didn’t come in. This is after all of the talks New Guy, OB, and ABean have had with her about her attendance record and behaviour problems. This is after New Guy told her she wasn’t coming to the youth fair because she needed to catch up on work and go through her event plans for Day Program. This is after yet another chance they’ve given her.
Personally, if I were them then I would fire her. She’s rude, inconsiderate, and lazy. She told New Guy that she wished NB had never resigned because he does things differently and she doesn’t like it. She also said she hated the fact that ABean was our supervisor now. I personally think New Guy is doing a wonderful job; ya its different from the way NB did things but so what? Everyone does stuff differently and at least it gets finished right? And ABean is a perfectly fine supervisor, if you do your work and record your proper hours then she’ll sign the sheets and not raise a fuss - I have no problem with her at all because I do my work. I don’t just sit on Myspace or whatever all day and expect it to be done for me.
But D keeps taking it all like a personal attack. She’s had chance after chance and it doesn’t seem to get through to her that she has to do the work and earn the responsibility. New Guy rewarded my hard working with a youth fair trip where I got to talk about SYG and recruit people for only 6 hours and mark down 8 on my schedule, because I worked hard during that time and it was a long day. New Guy doesn’t reward laziness, which makes sense. That’s to be expected in any work atmosphere. So why doesn’t she get that? If she showed up late for a shift at the place she works now, she would get suspended or fired. Co-op is no different from an actual job.
New Guy said he’d give her a few more chances though…but after that he’s putting his foot down. Apparently he’s already spoken to her teacher but the teacher doesn’t think D would ever do that. Wow eh? The employer is calling to say that the co-op student is not working and being lazy and the teacher defends the student she doesn’t see on a daily basis instead of taking the employers word for it. What a stupid, inconsiderate, asshat.
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4:38 pm |
A Week or So
I think the interview went okay, I thought my answers were pretty smart and I think that because I’ve been with SYG for nearly 3 years now, they should hire me on the grounds alone; because I know SYG and the members. But New Guy said they’d let me know in a week or so after all the interviews were over. I was really nervous, even though I know the people who interviewed me. I’m still doubting I’ll get it though, and I’m fearing that its because of my medical condition. They did ask me if I would be able to work the long hours and the extra long hours of camping, I said I could. I will though, even if I have to push myself to do it. I don’t care. How else will my body get used to it if I don’t push myself into doing the long hours?
And D was crying again today. ABean was reading her time log and knew that on Thursday she did nothing but go on facebook and sleep in the chair - hell they were there, passing looks to each other about what to do with D’s apparent laziness. But still, D claimed in her logs that she helped Day Program and went on a walk with them. Obviously, ABean who is Day Program Staff, is going to know if D actually helped Day Program out. So ABean gave her no hours and D was crying saying “Well Sarcastica, you got what you wanted; I got 0 hours for Thursday”. That wasn’t what I wanted, what I want is for it to get through D’s head that if you don’t work you don’t get hours. You need to earn them, you can’t make up bullshit saying you did this and that when you didn’t. Clearly everyone will be able to tell if you didn’t do anything and made it all up.
D was also pissed because New Guy is only taking me to the Youth Fair to get potiental volunteers. She thinks that I’m doing all the bad stuff; that I’m telling ABean and New Guy that she isn’t working. But I’m not, they came to me and asked me and I told them. I didn’t rat her out, I told the truth. Besides, they can see if she goes on facebook and know if her half of the work isn’t getting through.
Also, I’ve switched from Blogger to Wordpress on my Bumpy Bones blog, just because I wanted to have only one blog on this account and I didn’t feel like making a whole new entire gmail account and starting over. At least Wordpress allowed me to import all my old posts and comments. The only bummer part is that I can’t have my own custom design layout, but I guess you win some and you lose some. But go check it out now, cause I said so.
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5:58 pm |
I’ve Been Interviewed!
I’m so famous I have my own fan club on Facebook and now I’ve been interviewed by the lovely Vulgar Wizard! So Vulgar, the answers to your lovely questions are;
1. How old were you when you no longer believed in Santa Claus? (Or do you still believe?)
I still believe in Santa Claus, because I believe in my parents 
2. When you were a little girl, what did you dream you would grow up to be (or are you still dreaming)?
When I was a little girl, I dreamed of being a vet. I love animals and thought it would be perfect for me, unfortunately you need to have steady hands and mine are very shaky from lots of surgeries.
3. What would you do for a Klondike bar?
If you’re asking about those LOVELY ice cream sandwiches, I would do anything to get my hands on them. I ate an entire box of ice cream sandwiches at camp last year by myself. It was quite the show for Nifty, who had to rescue the second box from my grasp.
4. If you could spend one week anywhere on Earth, where would it be and why?
Hmm…a very good question. I had to think long and hard about the answer. I would love to spend one week in Iceland, because I saw a picture of it and it looks so peaceful and beautiful. That would probably be where I would want to spend my honey moon (if I went on one), plus its affordable!
5. What is the square root of 3,692?
Are you kidding me? I bet YOU don’t know the answer to that Vulgar! I don’t even know what a square root is!!
And there you have it. Comment me if you want me to ask you five questions in an interview style, and I’ll email you my questions, then you post the answers on your blog. Come on, it will be fun…I’m very creative!
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9:59 am |
A Not So Boring Day
So today I tagged along with my mom when she was driving B2 (younger sister) to her friends house, just because I didn’t want to stay home all day doing nothing. I guess it was a really good thing I did, because we ended up going to the ever famous Wal-Mart after dropping B2 off, and I got a couple stuff for the apartment. I bought (with my moms money) a new comforter (it’s black with pink cherries), a black lamp, and some cutlery. It sort of sounds like I’m going all gothic with the black and its slightly funny because I had an idea in my head of what I wanted my room to look like, and I wanted to get a lime green, pink and blue comforter and decorate my room with bright colours so I’d feel bright and cheerful. But bright and cheerful stuff is expensive, as I found, plus the patterns sucked balls so I just ended up getting the cute black comforter with pink cherries. And could you believe that Wal-Mart had no colourful lamps? So I ended up having to buy a black one, because it was pretty cheap too.
So much for colourful though, heh. I guess I can still get those flower rugs, only in pink to match my comforter. That would bring some colour to my room. Plus I plan on having millions of pictures of my family, friends, and boy toy around.
While we were in Wal-Mart looking for new clothes (I bought a cute dark green and black shirt, I shall take pictures) Karen texted me saying to call Shannon right away, so I did - thinking there was something wrong. Nothing ended up being wrong; Karen had come down for B1’s (my older sister; now 19) birthday party and wanted me to come down and see her. So I went to Big Sisters house and chilled there for a while; visiting with Karen, Big Sister and a few of her friends. B1 wasn’t there yet, so I didn’t end up getting to see her because we had to leave early as my parents are going out to some BBQ.
So B1 is going out to the bar for the first time ever. It sucks cause I can’t go, because I’m not legal yet. But that means I also get to miss out on more good times, and sit at home alone and bored. I’m supposed to go over to Nifty’s tomorrow but he’s working midnights so its going to be really boring because all he’ll want to sleep while I’ll want to do other things. But its still beats sitting at home on this bloody computer.
My plans for tonight are to finially catch up on reading whats been going on in everyones lives. Because I suck.
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7:18 pm |
Oh, and one more thing…
I was awarded a Thinking Blogger Award by Avitable (yes, only one person…heh) because he thinks I sound really great. Pff. If only he knew me in this thing I call “real life”, its completely different from blog life. I like totally victimize myself here.
Anyway, he instructed me to pick 5 other bloggers who make me think, and so I have! Even though I’m like a “blogging geek” and not many people know who I am unless they know Karen, Avitable, or Charred or have read my reviews at italk2much. I’m the nerdy person who stalks people. Well not really, I sort of read their blogs and barely comment because dial up sucks. Dejaview! I think I wrote that same sentence somewhere before…perhaps in a different life! And also, these are the first people who came to mind; so take no offense if you think you should be on here! Because a lot of bloggers make me think!
Ok, I’ll stop stalling now; here are the people I’m going to award this here Thinking Blogger Award to:
1. Troll Baby
Yeah I know what you’re thinking; just because she’s family right? Wrong. I would admire this woman even if she wasn’t a part of my family, but I’m glad she is. She’s one of my heroes, and I’ve even written a high school journal about her; but please don’t tell her, she doesn’t know. I consider her to be one of the strongest, bravest women I know. She had a pretty sucky childhood, and been threw a hell of a lot but she has risen above it and become a wonderful mother and person. If I could be half the person she is, then that would be just fine with me. Everything she says makes me think, and damn thats hard because Karen says a lot (which means I have to think a lot…just in case you missed that part).
2. The Cat Lady
Amanda is one of my favourite people, and one of the women I admire (and no, not in a creepy stalkerish way). She’s lost her husband to the most horrible murderer out there; cancer, but she still keeps trucking. She’s funny, shes brave, and she’s amazing. She’s made me laugh, cry, think, and strive to be a better person. I don’t think I could ever start over again if I was in her position, and that’s made me admire her all the more. Because she’s so strong. She’s making new dreams, but still keeping the old ones close to her heart.
3. Girl, Dislocated
GD is another person I admire, she happens to have a rare medical condition - just like myself but different, she has EDS and the stories she tells on her blog make me laugh. I love her outlook on life; despite having a medical condition that has her rushing to the ER to put her limbs back in their sockets, she remains upbeat and keeps a fresh attitude about life. Having a medical condition doesn’t seem to alter the person she is, and I wish I could say the same for me. I’m sort of getting at that stage, but I’m definitely not there yet.
4. An Oxymoron Is Not An Idiot With Zits
CP is another that really makes me think; and laugh. She’s been on my blogroll now for about a year, but it wasn’t until a couple months ago that I realized just how amazing of a person she really is. See, I’m not one to go way back into a persons archeives - dialup is just too damn slow for that - so I had no idea she was in an abusive relationship. I admire her for everything she’s been through, and she always manages to make me laugh. She’s overcome her past and built from it, away from it, and thats just really amazing. The stories about her mom just make laugh, although I know it must be hard for her having a mother that…uh, well Esther-ish.
5. Person Without a Clue
Charred has been with me since my early days of blogging, he found me through the lovely Karen and we both like to call him Uncle Charred because he acts like an over protective, advice giving uncle, and it’s pretty damn cool. He makes me think about decisions I’ve made and things I’m going through, and he’s always great for advice. His blog definitely makes me think, because half the time I can’t understand what he’s talking about! He uses big words, and big words confuse Sarcastica ;.; (thats a crying face by the way). I’m joking, just when he rambles on about computer gadgets I get all confused. Hey, the extent of my computer knowledge is turning it on or off, and getting connected to the internet. Thats where it ends. But he’s always teaching me something new, and teenagers need that!!
There you have it! I guess you can all just name five other bloggers that make you think…if you want. And award them it. Be sure to link to the original post so other people will know where the meme came from!
And Avitable, you also make me think…but you’ve been awarded like 3 times now so its time to pass the award on!
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8:39 pm |
