This is why we don’t play with Barbie’s anymore…

August 20, 2006 Uncategorized

All These Things I Hate

August 18, 2006 Uncategorized

Right now I’m in a pretty bad mood, for a lot of reasons. For starters, I was supposed to go over to Skid Head’s house this morning and watch some movies B1 rented before he went to his interview at three, but he never called. I got up early (at nine, but hey that’s early enough) and I was showered and ready by ten. And he didn’t even have the decency to call me.

Why does this piss me off so much? Well it makes me look stupid in front of my family for getting stood up. And it’s disrespectful. And rude. If you can’t make it somewhere, then you call the person to let them know, am I wrong?

Tomorrow I’m supposed to be going to his house for a party we’re throwing for MB, but I really don’t feel like going. MB wants me to go, but I’m really mad at Skid Head. And unless he makes it up to me, then I won’t. Maybe I’ll not call him and stand him up, give him a taste of his own medicine. I probably wouldn’t do that though because I’m going camping soon and it would be nice to see him before I leave. And last night he told me that he was switching schools, and would be moving within the first three months of school. He doesn’t mind because he likes “starting fresh”. He doesn’t seem to realize that if he switches schools then we’ll like never see each other. When I pointed that out to him, he said we’d figure it out and he would still go to his dads.

I was told that I would lose Skid Head to the distance, and that he’d find someone better and closer. That’s a nice thing to say, isn’t it? But those are my new worries.

It’s True

August 17, 2006 Uncategorized

My dad always said when you grow boobs your brains fall out. Which is why Kate and I weren’t aloud over at boys houses after we grew boobs, and now Jo isn’t aloud over at guy’s houses. But Kate and I managed to keep the majority of our brains… Jo seems to have lost them all. Every space in her brain is dedicated to makeup, clothes, and guys. It’s rather sad really, at least I can still fit in volunteer worries, work, school, friends and loyality. I love my sister…half the times. But Jo’s only nice when the mood suits her, and that isn’t fair to everyone else.

Anyway, I was at the SYG building pretty much all day helping plan the camping week. I’m really excited, there’s going to be a lot of cool shit going down. And I bought some pirate stuff from a cheap party store place. I’m so excited about camp, we’ve got so much planned for the members! The set up staff is going to put on a skit type thing like at Wonderland while everyone who took the bus down arrives on the boat. We’re gonna have Andrew, Scott and Mark all “walking the plank”, which is jumping of the diving tower, while dramatic music plays and an “unknown” announcer says stuff.

There is sooo much to do before camp. I’ve gotta see if I can borrow Robyn’s camping lamp, we need to buy a shitload of batteries for flashlights, lanterns (to light up the cabins at night) and a stereo we’re going to bring. I’m also bringing a video camera!

And I can’t wait, I’m so pumped!! haha.

Girls Night

August 11, 2006 Uncategorized

Last night I went over to Kyla’s for a girls night. It was pretty fun, it was just Caitlin, Kyla and I. And a 26er of vodka that did a really cool disappearing trick… haha. We talked about like everything and anything, mostly guys and people we didn’t like. Our girls night kinda turned evil at one point when Kyla started dissing random people she didn’t like, but I guess you can’t like everyone.

I didn’t end up going camping, because I didn’t feel to great this morning. I won’t be doing that again anytime soon. I think I’m all partied out anyway, besides I have more fun when I’m not drinking. And Kyla shouldn’t drink, because she blurted out secrets lol. Oh well, lesson learned.

So Much For Sisterly Love.

August 9, 2006 Uncategorized

I guess I’ve learned a very good lesson. Never tell B1 anything, never talk to her about my problems, and certainly don’t go to her when I have a problem.

I went to her when I was really upset about the whole Lewbag thing, and instead of comforting me and telling me it would be alright, she told me I was stupid for moving to fast and then later tried to black mail me. I already knew that I was stupid for moving to fast, so I didn’t near to hear that I had made a mistake. And when she tried to black mail me, that really hurt. She kept threatening to tell mom everything if I didn’t do what she wanted or kissed her ass. Nice eh?

I eventually ended up telling my mom everything in the hospital, sans the whole blackmail thing. I figured she didn’t need to hear that, and that I would just not talk to B1 ever again about my problems or go to her for comfort. I can’t believe she was the first person I went to, I guess I thought she’d help me out and give me some wise advice or something. All she did was tell me I was stupid and use the entire thing against me.

So today, she stormed into the computer room and asked how long I was going to be on my laptop. I reminded her that it was mine, and she said it tied up the other net. Which it doesn’t, and I’ve already explained to B1 several times that I use the old computer phone line and no one even goes on that so it doesn’t matter how long I stay on the computer. Then for some retarded B1 reason she said “Are you sleeping with Skid Head?!” with a smug look on her face, then she mumbled something about something or another and walked off. Like what the hell is her problem? As if she bothers to get to know me at all, or what I’m feeling. And how dare she make assumptions about me, when she spends nights at her boyfriends house supposevily sleeping in his sisters room or whatever. I never accuse her of sleeping with him, and I barely even see Skid Head yet apparently I always sleep with him. Ok. Whatever. I love how she thinks she knows me.

And this is why B1 and I don’t get along, because I can’t trust her with anything. And she doesn’t even bother to get to know me, or what happens in my life. So far everytime I’ve told her something she’s used it against me, she does the same thing to B2. She even judges Big Sister. I hate the fact that she can’t let us make our own mistakes and accept the fact that we are learning from the mistakes we make, she just uses it against us and make us feel inferior cause she’s apparently oh so perfect. She’s never made a mistake in her life, she’s never done something stupid or something she regrets. And because Big Sister, B2 and I are only human she has to throw the stuff we’ve done that we regret down our throats.

And I’m sick of it.

Another Worthless Post

August 7, 2006 Uncategorized

Lately that’s all I’ve been posting - topics without a meaning or a purpose. But I don’t care anymore. I can’t talk about this to any of my friends because they either tell me what I don’t wanna hear. Lately Kyla has been the worst person to go to for advice, I still love her and all but her advice [had I been stupid enough to follow it] could destory a very important relationship and get me grounded.

I was supposed to go with her and Adam up to Adam’s cottage, but I couldn’t leave B2 home alone (turns out that B2 didn’t need me…she was at a friends for the entire weekend). Kyla kept telling me to just go anyway, and not tell my parents.

Plus there was the whole “advice” on Skid Head, after I got mad at him. She told me to cheat on him and go out with some other guy that’s interested in me. It’s possible that she isn’t being serious but still.

So I’m trying to resist the urge to talk to him, or ask him to hang out. I figure that if he wanted to talk to me he’d call me, or if he wanted to see me he’d ask me to hang out. I’d have no problem with this plan if I actually had something to fill the void of time I either spend with him or talking to him. I’m really glad I’ll be spending the day at the zoo tomorrow with SYG, my thoughts won’t be on him for once (I hope).

And then the next day is weeklong camp orientation!! I can’t wait for the weeklong! I’m so excited! The only downer parts cramping my happy high about it are the fact that there is huge mother fucking spiders the size of my face there, and I’m afraid of spiders. Miss High & Mighty will also be there, I hate her almost as much as I hate those spiders. And I won’t be able to talk to Skid Head for like a week and a half. That’s torture, haha. I know it’s stupid but it’s still the beginning of our relationship and it’s still in that “honeymoon” stage or whatever it’s called.

And in other news, the guy who likes me and who has been repeatedly asking me to dump Skid Head for him (which I wouldn’t) now wants to meet Robyn. He says he’s sick of being alone and he wants to meet her. I’m hoping it’s not an attempt to get closer to me cause that would be creepy but I’ve agreed to double with him and Robyn. Jacob’s hot, but he isn’t the sharpest tool in the shed. And Robyn’s really smart, so I doubt she’ll hold interest in him for long.

But we’ll see how all this goes. Especially my plan of not paying too much attention to Skid Head, although when it comes to self control - I clearly lack it.

Edit 29/04/2007: I find it ironic that in the end, I ended up following Kyla’s silly advice on cheating on Skid Head and breaking up with him. I couldn’t resist pointing that out.

Brown Eyed Girl

August 6, 2006 Uncategorized

I went to Robyn’s house last night. We hung out with Lisa and Jeremy for a while, then went back to her house, and then back uptown again. I ran into Chris H, who I used to hang out with a lot last year. He’s a really sweet, funny guy. He’s sorta seeing JD now, and we saw him walking back from McDonalds talking to himself - he was a little drunk. Chris is the funniest drunk ever, so we chilled at the town hall with him and Crazy Legs.

It was pretty fun, I guess there was a wedding going on at the town hall cause they were playing lots of music and people were dressed up. Chris kept singing all the oldies and it was so hysterical. We had fun…until two chicks arrived and the one barely even looked at me and asked Chris if I was “Lewbag’s ex”. Nice eh? We left because she’s a bitch. I think it was the same chick who Skid Head stopped to talk to at Pizza Pizza, and she’s friends with his sister. Which means I’ll be seeing a lot of her again. Great.

Skid Head’s still pissed off about the other night when I got mad at him, which is gay. I forgave him for letting me down and not even apologizing to me. I forgive him for not being “open”. And he already knew before he asked me out that I was complicated and that I have a temper. But whatever, I just won’t call him anymore. If he wants to talk to me then he can call me. Which he won’t but whatever.

So I’m in a bad mood again today.

There’s Nothing I Can Do

August 5, 2006 Uncategorized

So I didn’t end up seeing Skid Head last night. We were supposed to be at Kyla’s for a “chillfest” in her backyard. He said he would be there, and then at nine he calls me from his moms house (which is forty five minutes away) and says he didn’t realize it was so late and that he couldn’t go. I said whatever and hung up, cause I was pissed.

I called him a while later to reask him what his reasons were because I was pretty sure I didn’t hear a good excuse. He explained that he had lost track of time. He didn’t apologize or anything, so I got madder. He didn’t understand why I was mad. Typical guy. I was mad because not only did he give me his word and break it, but he didn’t seem all that bummed out that he didn’t get to see me either. Nor did he say he missed me and had wanted to see me. Nor did he offer any real explanation other then he was doing “barn stuff”. I understand that he’s busy, but when he gives me his word for something I expect him to follow through. I don’t know, maybe I’m just crazy.

And my the disappointment pissed me off a little too much. I don’t like feeling stupid, and I felt stupid because Adam and Kyla kept saying he was going to let me down and I kept defending him.

Adam and I did kiss and make up, and he said he was pissed off because he hated Skid Head. He thinks I can do better then him, and that I deserve better. If that’s true, I don’t care. I don’t want to do better, I like Skid Head a lot. And yes he’s not the most reliable person and although I am mad at him for that I know things don’t always go according to plan and that shit happens.

I know I’m contradicting myself there, but hey. I know that Skid Head likes me and misses me and stuff, but he doesn’t really say it (cause he’s a guy, and a guarded one at that). I’d wish that he could be more open and he is working on that… but I’ve gotta work on my trust issues. And my insecurtity issues. We both have stuff we need to work on, like our communication skills. They need work. But in all fairness, he’s been there. And he treats me good, which is a great thing I think. He respects me and never demands sexual favours (sorry for sharing that but its true).

I just wish Adam would stop being so judgemental and relax. And I wish I didn’t over react and get pissed off so easily. It’s funny, because I sorta started this post off as a bitch fest over what he did and didn’t do last night but I’ve ended up realizing I was the immature one. Cool.

I’m a "c" person: confusing, complicated, and complex

August 4, 2006 Uncategorized

Or at least that’s what Skid Head says…because in every conversation I somehow always manage to confuse him. It’s his fault, he told me a way to test people if they were high was to talk to them really fast and mix up words of your sentances. But this works really well, because it works when you are completely sober. The funniest part is I haven’t been doing it intentenionally, it mostly happens when I’m tired or not paying attention to what I’m saying. I just thought I’d share that…because I’m a confusing, complicated, and complex person.

I haven’t really had the time or gull to blog lately. I’ve been so caught up in trying to have the “perfect” summer that all my engery goes into making up plans of things to do, or hanging out with my friends. I know you’re all dying for an update of what I’ve been doing (or do you perfer the new, less annoying with posts me?).

Lets back tract to Monday, when I went on that double date. I’ve decided that am never picking the movie again. John Tucker Must Die was a bad movie, well it wasn’t really terrible or anything but it certainly wasn’t AMC worthy. The most expensive movie I have been to has got to be the lamest - awesome. We would have been better off listening to Skid Head and going to see Miami Vice. But no, Merina and I had to see the new flick with Jesse Metcalfe in it. At least it wasn’t a total bomb, cause we got to see him in nothing but a thong…haha. It was funny, but again…not 10 bucks and 50 cents funny.

The next day I had Physio Therapy at a local hospital, then I went into town to hang out with JD. Aren’t teenagers such drama queens? I’m sure our behaviour amuses and frustrates adults. We “don’t talk” to someone one minute and then we’re “best friends” the next minute. I guess it’s cause we’re young and we can forgive and forget easily. If not forget, at least we can push our differences aside for one day of snapping the funniest pictures ever. And deciding on making a spoof movie on spoof movies.

The next day I was invited over to Skid Head’s house, so that was interesting. We didn’t really do anything except for watching Face/Off and some war movie and talking.

Yesterday G&P took my mom, my sister and her friend and me out to lunch before they went to the airport for their three week trip to England. I’m so envious of them, haha. They won’t be back for three weeks though…so I’m going to miss them!

Today I am going to Kyla’s house for a small gathering. It’s going to be very awkward because her boyfriend who was once a very good friend of mine has decided to hate me for the stupidest reason in all the world. And although he won’t start anything with me (cause he knows he’d lose), just knowing that he hates me is going to piss me off. How can you hate one of your best friends so easily? Not to mention, I’ll probably end up confronting him and bitching at him, which won’t help with the situation. Plus I was already annoyed with him because he hates Skid Head. He’s completely crossed him off and he doesn’t even know Skid Head. If Adam truly was my friend, then he’d see how Skid Head treats me and at least hold a little more respect for him. But no, because Adam is anal and once he decides to hate someone he really hates them, theres no going back. But I guess it doesn’t matter because he hates me now too. Talk about being on the freaking OC. In fact, perhaps I’ll bring a video camera and sell this shit and become rich off of my high school drama.

And since I’ve reminded myself that Adam hates me, I’m going to go and be all angry at him. And Kyla for not talking to him about it.