No Worries
June 18, 2006
Ok - first thing on my mind today is air freshener. You know, that lovely bottle full of wonderful smells that should be found in bathrooms? Yeah, I love it. It’s a life saver. How so? Think about it…your at a friends house and you really have to take a dump but you don’t want to because it’s not at your house and everytime you take a dump at someone else’s house it smells far from roses. So air freshener helps a hell of a lot in sticky situations. The problem is that the majority of the houses I go to (take Jess F and Kyla for instance) don’t have air freshener. So from now on I’m going to buy those little tiny canisters that fit conveniently inside your purse. Perfect for smelly situations like that.
Second is a little issue I’m having with my mom. She’s worried that I’m pushing myself too much (I’ve now started using crutches instead of a walker because I want to get downstairs to my room) and that I’m not ready. I think pushing yourself is when your going over your boundaries, I don’t think I’m doing that. I’m doing what I’m able to. Still, she’s worried about me. She thinks it’s too soon for me to be going downstairs to sleep, and that I should stay upstairs and continue sleeping in the family room. My issue is that I’ve been upstairs for a month now without the surroundings of my own bedroom. I’m a light sleeper, and every sound wakes me up - I’ve mentioned before that my mom snores. So does the dog. The dog also wakes up and barks at Kathrynn when she gets home, which is pretty much every night. Plus I was woken up by a bee buzzing around yesterday - and it was outside the window. I would sleep way better down in my own room.
I hate pissing her off, and she’s pissed off now. Because I want to get better. This is who I am though, I can’t spend an entire month upstairs with no privacy from anyone, I literally go insane. But Dad thinks I’m ready, and he’s bringing my mattress down to my room. I’m concerned because they’ve sorta been butting heads over me. I mentioned I wanted to meet up with Mandy somewhere this summer (Mandy’s one of my good friends with MHE who lives in the States, I haven’t actually seen her since grade seven), perhaps at Six Flags. Mom doesn’t think this summer I’ll be able to do any rides. Which is ok but I still want to meet up with Mandy some where. Dad wants us to go on a vacation. I’m thinking I should keep my mouth shut though. When I appoarch my mom with something, she says she doesn’t want to worry about it then, which is a no. If I go to my dad it’s pretty much an instead yes, and that upsets my mom because she feels like the bad guy but my dad just wants me to cheer up. So if I go to my mom, I never get an answer and if I go to my dad I get an answer and upset my mom. Oh what’s a girl to do?
June 19th, 2006 at 2:31 am
Remember, they’re the parents, they’re adults, they love each other, and they will work it out together.
You’re not responsible for their relationship.